Will you answer?

Words lie like dirty sheets on the floor, the curtains blocking the light to the inner fight, the hate spreading like wine over a carpet of white. The furniture like the rest of the room is old and damaged, except for the red telephone hanging on the pealing  paper walls. So long have I looked at the phone waiting for it to ring, a way out, an escape out of this dream.

Days have passed since I opened my eyes and till now no one has knocked on the rusted metal door. I remain alone here with my actions, paying off my debt for a day, a life, a night. What lies behind the door I do not know, a portal to reality written on the wall. When will I stand and face this messy place, how long must I wait.

Its been a month now and I am still alone, the phone stopped working days ago. It did not matter, who would I have called? I was the one that was better first, I had success and everything, I did not need them like I needed them before. Gone is the sun now, the shadows it used to cast over these filthy words and stained carpeted floor. If I am to make it I must open that door, I cant stay here much longer, I am going backwards and need them all again. I need the people at the bottom to carry me back to my majestic chair way up in the sky.

The door is heavy. It had been shut for a long time, clouds of swarming dust filled the room as I pulled on it. It cracked and squeaked until finally I could make out something on the other side. It was paradise. I was home. I swung open the door and ran as far as I could until I reached a pool of water and jumped inside.Then I heard it, it was faint at first but soon became clear, standing in the middle of the water was the red telephone ringing away.

I approached with caution lifting the receiver remaining silent. Truth is just like the last time someone hung up and the message was the same. I thought I was to good for other people when I reached the top, truth is I was wrong.

I guess in the end the question is whether that red phone is also ringing for you? Will you answer it or ignore it just like others will eventually start to ignore you.

I choose to say Thank you!


 

The Gift of Success

We all have this dream of riding on the gravy train, getting successful, building a name for ourselves and taking all the joy and pleasure we can grab from it. You know you worked hard and it was a painful process to get you here but then something unusual occurs. You start caring less and less, you start to take that hard work turning it into superiority, a crown you chose and wear. When you see the small people that stands down there, the same place you once stood, you disregard them. You just wave as the train passes, waving in royalty.

I think there are three things to focus on when you move up whether it's a promotion at work or even just landing a new career.

Success and Caring. 
Helping and giving back. 
Supporting and feeling included. 

So you made it but what about the rest. Who do you help and who do you throw away? Or from being someone who cared about everyone at work you now only have certain favorites that meets your standards, standards you support. You once made the coffee, now it feels like someone must bring the coffee to you.
You ignore, you stare, you criticize and sometimes when you do feel like it you will give a quick hello just to make a person feel they have a little bit of happiness thinking that they might mean something to you..

I think as I mentioned above, give back, help others who are still waiting for their ticket. Care about their success and think of ways that you can help them achieve their goals, don't just wave and think they will never make it. One day without your help or your assistance they will, because someone out there will help and maybe when you need someone, and your success has faded and the train ride has ended for you, you will expect someone to do what you were not bothered with..

Success and Caring.
Helping and giving back.
Supporting and feeling included. 

Every person, even the smallest person needs encouragement, support, a smile of kindness and just someone to show a little interest. The walk to success is a long one, so do whatever you can to be there for others and forget about the crown, you still have work to do.

Cat vs. Fish

 Hamlet and Sylvester, our boys.

You are no easy going companion, sometimes you want nothing to do with me.

 What do you do, you ignore me completely then I am not supposed to get angry at you. Your tantrums alone is enough, I am fed up with it, I can take no more, please I beg of you go and take all that anger and frustration out somewhere else than here.

 You do things your way, forget about how I feel or what I want it is simply who you are and when you were small I never thought of that, teaching you to consider others, have I failed as a father? You laze around all day following the sun and at night you are awake when I want to sleep, who are you and what have you done with my original?

Yes I complain about you, I am as guilty as can be but my points are valid, I mean who baths so late at night when you could have done it earlier? You are after me, every night your method is the same, you are tired from lazing outside and chasing creatures that has done nothing to hurt you, when the food comes so do you. Chicken night is always the worst, like the fish you smile and stare at me just waiting for your portion. I have never given you some of my food, so why do you even try? I can't even eat gum without you wanting to take it from me, honestly you are weird, is that thanks to me?

But after all of this, unlike my friend the fish, when I am cold you will always be there, when I am upset or down, there you are. In the morning when I wake up I need you and my coffee to get me through the day. So next time I step on your tail just know that I am sorry because I can't tell you so.

 And if others want to teach you new tricks like licking ice cream or teasing you I can't always help but my cat, my thoughts are with you.

A thought!

Most woman in a relationship often suggest that they are right in every way and unfortunately a few men stands up to this. Before I carry on, I am not stereo typing anyone, neither man or woman. I believe it does happen, you do get relationships where the man or the woman just bows down and believes everything that is said as the truth. We all know a relationship should be, equal in all aspects but:

1) We watch movies and yes I know, I enjoy it to. We focus on what is being said, for example by the female lead and her attitude towards the male lead whether they are married, getting married, broken up or still in love as boyfriend and girlfriend. Not only does our eyes see but our minds take it in. To be a better mother my husband has to or I have to, or she needs to stop doing this and believe that it is not good for us.

2)We see it on infomercials, perfect families eating supper together laughing away or kids playing in the mud outside. What happens, one or the other is handed a suggestion without a choice that supper needs to be a family thing because, or the kids that are studying must play outside more so maybe it is time you get us a pool. 

3) Books on how to, yes the author might be right in many ways but what if the "Take Control" chapter is a bit extreme or totally puts you on another path. Our eyes takes it in and our mind listens, what can I do to change this better?

4)Asking for advice from a friend, i am not familiar with this situation but I believe no matter how good your relationship is don't ask for how to or what can I do advice. You don't want to thank the person later on for their great but wrong advice. 

5) Communication. It is important to talk always. If one has something that they feel needs a tweak or change don't hold it in to start throwing hints further along as you are not comfortable asking or talking about it anymore. In other words before it does become a skeleton bring it back to life. Discuss and reach a compromise. 

But hey, I am no relationship guru or adviser. These are my thoughts and how I see it. I believe one should never think you are always right. It is normal what I mentioned above but you will never be that someone else who takes the ultimate control or change a household or relationship that has been working for such a long time. Love what you have and if a change needs to be made, talk about it instead of insisting that your choice is the right one. Love what you have, in the end that is the most important part!

My Love Unknown

I felt the darkness fade

returning of body and soul

broken and defeated I once was 

rescued by my love unknown.

Time is what I spend

healing of body and soul

distant and outcast I once was

rescued by my love unknown 

The sun is setting slow

return of a beauty once forgotten

blind and deaf I once was

rescued by my love unknown 

Waves against rocks

feeling confidence once lost

lost and forgotten I once was

rescued by my love unknown

Friendship found

once again I see

unreachable I once was

rescued by my love unknown

Logging out now

in joy I can live now

with you, was has turned to now

rescued by you my love unknown

 Becky125