The Friday Edition: Goodbye

Till we meet again it was written
with thought it was done
a promise or a saying
we never know which one

Its not easy to say goodbye
when so many memories conflict with time
the albums of days and years forever frozen and inked combined.

Its not easy to say goodbye
when days are so long on printed paper
the big blocks a reminder of the days and nights to come.

Its not easy to say goodbye
when flowers from the ground grows and with grass it spreads
a stone the memory of what once was in silence to remain.

Its never easy to say goodbye
but there is always hope of views in the future
when time allows us or simply to remember
 in a prayer

Till we meet again it was written
with thought it was done
a promise or a saying
we never know which one.

To never forget
Always remember
We are only borrowed to each other
make it count

Monday Read: ?

Your face was turned away from me, rain was pouring down harder now as you walked away leaving me standing there on my own. For the first time I could not see the emotion in your eyes or read you like the book I understood and knew so well. How did it happen? How did it come to this? The black cloth of lies that hung between us for so long was finally torn leaving the truth unraveling in the wind. I never meant for it to happen but this road, the road i have walked smiling so many times before was beginning to fill with the filth of the rain creating puddles of thick mud. Just like that you disappeared, just like that you were gone and the days that were filled with sunshine became cold and dark.

Names and faces does not matter, I have seen so many staring back at me. Every new mission brought a new identity, every identity programmed with a past, a future, hopes and dreams. The more I do for them, the more I end up not knowing who I am anymore. I fear I will wake up one day and remain a Jake or a Andrew, some box filled with a lie of who I am not. I don't know how you did it, I am not suppose to feel, not suppose to remember but you hacked the program, you brought out a part of the real me. I wish now I could just have told you about who I was and not the fake hired to bring you in. You walked away because I betrayed you, I handed you over to them. I don't know where you are no but I know you wont remember. Once you have the D.O.D device it owns you and not the other way around. Yes I wish this was some film; you talked so much about them; but the truth is this is real. If we don't make the changes to yesterday and tomorrow today will remain the same.

I hope our paths cross again somewhere in time. For now I must begin a new chapter, betray someone else, wake them up and tell them who they really are.

As for you I will never forget or will I ? Will this even make sense when I see it later?

"So is that it?"
"Im afraid so mam," a young man replied dressed in black and white armor. A red dragon filled his chest piece, flying high in an open sky protecting that which lay below.
 "I want you to find him, I don't care what it takes but we cant lose him, reset his D.O.D device if you have to but bring him home," Thena said worried pacing up and down.

To be continued...

Blowing out the candles

Birthday cards bring happy thoughts, the kind that makes you smile and think for a second. It is nice to receive, nice to hear those words that says all is okay or to feel that so many has your back. These are the people that accepts you and stands by you through thick and thin.

In an ideal world the above would be true for some but it is not always the case. How many times do you buy the birthday card and provide the support and all your left with in the end is a fake friend only wanting and acting his or her way through. The best of all is some of us does not give up so easily and we try again and again until we start thinking that the fault lies with us and not with them. So it starts, all the questions about what is the real truth behind it.

Never give up on anyone or so we believe but why should u stick around with someone who does not really believe in you. Why spend time laughing and smiling knowing that behind your back its all one long conversation. The truth is what you do for someone else or let me say try and do for them is real but it goes with notice and then gets ignored.

So i guess the real question is how many birthday cards will it take for you to realise that you are wasting your time. Best advice let go if you can or just act along and pretend for the rest of your life that you are infact important to this person. And that what you say means more than just a smile from them.

In the end i share my cake with those that deserves it, that makes me whole and supports who I am and as for the rest sorry there are only so many invitations...

Dont  lose your chance to do right upon others, you will answer for it in the end and that person might just be listening to all of it.

The 2014 Challenge

Its a new year. 2013 or at the end of it was surprising and brought forth a new challenge. I like a new challenge as long as i know what it is and how to get through it quickly. The truth is that no challenge is ever that simple, especially those that jump out from nowhere just smiling. Murphy is it? Is that what they call him or her or it?

So here we are in 2014 and we all hope for that good fresh start;it is like wishing you will win millions tomorrow or that all will be just right. Sorry if this is coming from a negative  perspective but sometimes it is and other times it is not. Who has never prayed about life or wished upon a shooting star? At some time we all do and face it nobody is perfect , nobody lands on their feet each day, we all have our down moments.

So what does a person do? Well im no professional but talking about it might help and might not help. Sitting at the drawing board all night might also do the trick and also not. I once believed in smoking and I am glad that I still think about it,  just less. Im in no means promoting drugs or alcohol , i was always the best i n my class; :-)) several years ago.

Truth is 2014 is here and there might already be drama but if you stand together with those friends or family or just ask for help it does make the load a little easier to bare no matter the situation. In the end its about love and how far a person is willing to go for yourself or someone else.

I for one am grateful for this year and even if it is a bumpy one, im spending it with the people i love and care about.  Losing yourself in stress is not.

See u guys tomorrow and care always.

Break a leg!

I recently saw the preview of Marvels new series S.H.I.E.L.D which will be coming to your screens late fall, we normally have to wait for stuff. The preview on Youtube was excellent and it looks like there is quite some interesting things to come, but I am not here to talk about that.

I woke up feeling stressed today because there is just so much happening at the moment that I do not always know how to place everything in folders from A-Z. But it got me thinking what if the world of television and movies started creating stories that would be interesting and that motivates at the same time. I know there are many such movies out there but I am referring to all the little stuff that becomes so big within our minds if we allow it. I have never done a screenplay before so I did a very small one to explain a different path.

EXT. WOODS. NIGHT

The wind was raging through the trees, rain pouring down as JESSICA ran towards the house slamming the door behind her.

INT. HOUSE. NIGHT

There was silence in the living room as the others looked at JESSICA soaking wet and shivering from shock.

MATT

What is going on? Are you alright?

STACY

It looks like you've seen a ghost.

JESSICA

We have to leave, now!

MATT

Tell us what is wrong?

JESSICA

I told both of you it was a bad idea and now it is after us.

MATT

JESSICA what are you talking about?

STACY

Are u referring to the Cave JESSICA, the cave with the bones? Oh you can be so silly sometimes. I think I am calling it a night  guys.

JESSICA

We did something, there is something out there, stuff that are not meant to be real. You have to believe me.

MATT

It is raining Jess, it is dark. Maybe it's just your imagination playing tricks on you.

JESSICA

There was a boy running through the forest, he looked like he jumped out of a fairy tale with leaves covering his body but I ignored it until I heard an old woman calling out for Snow White. Once again I thought it was just children playing, but then hiding within a stack of trees I saw the beast, a man like beast, half human, half animal.

MATT

JESSICA listen to me whatever you saw cant be real. Like you said it was most probably just children messing around. I think we all just need a good nights sleep.

STACY

Agree, so that some of us don't see something out of Peter Pan, the witch from snow white and the beast without his beauty.

INT.UPSTAIRS. NIGHT

Lightning flashed through the windows, small branches from nearby trees scratching against them. A slow knock on the door startled JESSICA and the others.

MATT

Who on earth could that be this time of the night?

WOLF

Let me in, let me in little friends or I will huff and puff and blow your house down.

STACY

Oh you've got to be freaking kidding me. 

MATT

Stop with your jokes and go home. Mommy is probably worried about you as it's way past your bedtime.

JESSICA

We should have left that cave alone. 

So this is what I came up with, silly I know, but this is before all the death scenes and stuff. What will come out at the end of this is focused on the paths that are chosen. Do you go looking around a cave that clearly says DO NOT ENTER. You always have a choice but normally our curiosity gets the better of us so we do go looking and sometimes we create problems and issues in our lives that aren't real. Like stress, what would a movie about stress be about...a stress monster that is destroying the world and it is up to the S.T.R.E.S.S.E.D team to deliver stress balls to everyone on the planet. If no one squeezes anymore, it is over. 

I know this is all so far fetched that it sounds ridiculous, I know that too but wouldn't it be nice to put the movie in and watch the stress team in action, how they defeat the bad guy once and for all. Is that not better than chocolates ad cookies or coffee and ice cream, cigarettes, alcohol and all the other bad habits we use to sooth the stress within us. I think so. 

I hope this makes at least a little sense as it does within this mind of mine. I know life is a stage, today I have broken my leg, allowed the fat lady to sing and watched the curtains fall. Luckily I have my stress ball.